So as I sat in my bed last night just thinking about
everything under the sun, it hit me. The question I have been asking myself
repeatedly since creative writing started. What is behind my doors? Behind the
doors that I have locked, that the little girl behind the door is screaming to
let out. Well I finally unlocked the door!!!! I found what I’m hiding from
myself! You see, when I was very young, 5th grade to be exact, I was
bullied, I was made fun of by a group of girls at our school who thought they
were so much better than me because I wasn’t girly. So I completely changed who
I was, I went from the biggest tomboy ever, to a preppy annoying girlie girl. I
did all of this just to be accepted, to stop being judged so badly… and after
time passed, I was able to find a balance between my girly and tomboy, and now I’m
realizing, that being bullied forced me to find my girly side, and to realize,
that being a fashionista and all that stuff is who I really am. It took so much
pain and hurt, and so many bad thoughts to realize it, but I did. I am so happy
that I finally unlocked this door!!! I have been trying to figure it out for so
long now, and it just hit me! Sometimes we have to go through hard stuff, but
there is almost always light at the end of the tunnel :)
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