1/19/13

You're becoming something you promised not to be, something you told me not to be. Your hypocrisy is overwhelming, I can't live the life you want me to. It is not who I am, as a matter of fact it is isn't who you are. We were finally at a place where we were comfortable and all getting along so well. We had fun and enjoyed ourselves. But then you decide to turn around and tell me that you aren't living life right when it was so close to perfect. I'm sick of the change. I wont be who you are trying to force me to be, you always encourage me to not be exactly who I think you want me to be, but when I try to be my own person I am constantly told that i'm not doing it right. So here is what I will do, I will play your little game, I will dance the dance and do what you want when i'm home. But the second I walk out that door, I am no longer your pet, I am not your puppet, I am Adriel. I am who I want to be, I don't mind the way I am, I don't believe the way you do, I am my own person, I will not be this perfect little angel that you want me to be. I love you so much, and if you want to be legalistic and life life with tons of rules, then so be it, congratulations on being who you said you wouldn't be! But when I have the money and i'm an adult, i'm out, because I wont live under these strict rules. I will keep you in my heart, and I will visit, but I will live life without rules, only beliefs and morals. I won't have a stupid list of house rules and cell phone rules hanging on my fridge, I wish you could see this but i'm sure you wont, so I will move on. I will keep being the fake girl you want me to be, I will say yes ma'am and yes sir and hide away in my room and read my bible for your required 15 minutes, I hope you're proud that you're forcing me to be something i'm not! :)

Guys, seriously, don't let anybody force you or convince you to be something or someone you aren't. It isn't right, and in the end you are going to lash out once you realize that you aren't who they've convinced you that you must be. Be yourself, that doesn't mean go crazy and rebel, it just means that if you want to do something out of the ordinary, or watch a movie that isn't of your parents strict requirements, then I say go for it! live life a little, not locked away in a cage. Because you will eventually realize that you aren't happy. I know that nobody wants to die realizing that they weren't who they should have been. So don't let that happen! GO CRAZY KIDS!