1/12/13

You know when tongs of people will tell you the same thing and you never really listen or catch on, but then one or two certain people say something and that's when it finally clicks and means something? This happened to me recently, i've been kind of going through a low point. People were telling me to be careful before I really got myself caught up in a mess, which I was just so dead and emotionless that I didn't really care what I got myself into. But then one person that I had despised for years and have recently become kind of close with sat me down and talked to me. He told me to be careful, that he made so many mistakes that i'm starting to make and that I don't want to end up having to try to fix my mess like he is today. And that I will eventually have to spend every single day paying for it, and that isn't what I want. I was touched, but still a little hesitant, then someone else talked to me. Someone that I have cared a lot about for a long time told me straight up that i've gotten myself into a bad situation and to get out of it i'm going to have to hurt some people, because i've led on too many people into thinking that i'm much more interested than I am. That I did not do on purpose, but either way it happened, and now i'm working so hard to get out of it the best I can without being too hurtful to people. So now here I am again, trying to pull myself out of a hole that i've dug, but I know I can do it, I might lose some friends in the process, but I guess they probably weren't my real friends to start with. Wish me luck because it is going to be a hard next few weeks!!! I've got a lot of proving to do to a lot of people, but I want to apologize to anybody I have hurt during this process, I know I wasn't the nicest or most loving to everybody, so for that I am so sorry. This has been quite a learning experience and one that I hope I never have to encounter again! Have a lovely Sunday everybody! And may the odds be ever in your favor! ;)