You know that feeling where you are certain you are going to get in trouble for something, like there is no possible way they could find out but the way they look at you makes you just know that somehow, in this crazy mess of lies they put the pieces together? But at the end of the day they don't say anything? And really they still don't have a clue? I was just thinking about how our feelings about something or our suspicions can make somebody else's actions and words seem so incredibly different. I've noticed this with myself, like when I don't like somebody, I read into every little thing that they say and do, if they look at me it is instantly that they were looking me up, or giving me some dirty snarl. or if they say something to me, it's just to make themselves look good for the people standing around. But although at some points i read into it a little too much, i'm normally pretty spot on correct!
I've gotten to the point of being sick of some certain people. They try to ruin my friendships and interfere with my life, and for no reason. Just for their own entertainment and immaturity. But the funny thing is that by them being so rude and stupid, it has only caused them to lose friends and encouraged me to pull my friends closer. I went through a phase of just having the stupidest friends and I was just not in a good place AT ALL. But once this school year started, I fell into a new realm. I have mad TONS of new good friends who care about me and love me the way I am. It is so amazing and I never go a morning anymore without somebody texting me just to say good morning or let me know that they love me. It is the best feeling in the world! I don't think i've ever been so happy in my life! I've grown up my whole life having people thrown in and out of my life, and now, even though i know that only maybe two or three or possibly none will stick around, i'm okay with it and going to enjoy the time I have with them now as best as I can! And it's my senior year so might as well live life on the crazy side a little bit right? ;)
When I write it is normally my personal feelings that I don't write for other people to read, so I get sooooo behind on my blogging, but from now on i'm going to put aside my personal writing and stay up on my blog, it is my definite goal for this year! And when I can finally start my novel it will make it much easier to post on my blog! My nano idea is so great! Like I am so majorly pumped about it! I can't wait to start writing it and to get it published!
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