The locked door behind the locked door...
I know not what is behind my second door, but what I do know is that it will be a challenge to unlock. The last door was hard, and this one will only be more difficult. I feel like an open book with myself, but i'm sure there is something new to learn about myself. Something fantastic to remember, something that will change my outlook on life.
But I think that when I do get that door open, that there will be somebody behind it. Somebody holding a book. One book, filled with everything about me, everything I do and don't want to know. I do know that when that door is opened it will unlock countless secrets. And I will not like seeing them be revealed. So altogether, I am nervous for this year, i'm scared to unlock any more doors. They are chained up for a reason, I put them back there and threw away the key to never be found again, because I wanted them locked away. Opening them up will hurt, and it will be disheartening, but it's what needs to happen.
Secrets were never made to stay a secret.
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Just another ring around the tree,
that's what you are.
A single blade of grass,
no different than the others.
Nothing but a pinch of salt in the ocean.
Just another phase in my life
-Adriel McCuan
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Pure nothingness,
not a taste on my tongue,
not a thought in my mind.
Nothing can please me.
The only craving I have is for joy.
I know not why I feel this way....
Then again,
I don't really feel anything.
Pure nothingness.
A world with no color.
No light.
Like a dark hole that never ends.
I feel no warmth from the sun beating down on my skin.
I don't even feel the wind that looks to be whipping through my hair.
I feel nothing.
Pure Nothingness.
-Adriel McCuan
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The teller of time.
The proof of hard work.
the holder of reality.
The hands of a mother.
A story.
A tale of wisdom and love.
-Adriel McCuan
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A smile is the sun on a stormy day.
A glimmer of hope when you can't get out.
A soft voice when you feel so alone.
A smile is an oasis in a forgotten desert.
-Adriel McCuan
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They don't listen to my screams in the night.
They don't care.
My words are nothing but a faint whisper in the breeze to them.
They don't love,
they don't feel.
They want me to feel alone.
Empty.
Hopeless.
-Adriel McCuan
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Tears over run by rage.
Remorse taken over by revenge.
Gave you the key to my dreams.
And you used it to lock them away.
-Adriel McCuan
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Every word that leaves your lips.
Every syllable just drives the knife in.
Deeper into my chest.
Please kill me already,
this pain is too much for me.
I'm too weak.
I lost all power to fight back.
Your words have over taken me.
There's no turning back now.
What's done is done.
I'm done.
-Adriel McCuan
Pure Nothingness. I like that. It's a fascinating idea.
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