You know that feeling where you are certain you are going to get in trouble for something, like there is no possible way they could find out but the way they look at you makes you just know that somehow, in this crazy mess of lies they put the pieces together? But at the end of the day they don't say anything? And really they still don't have a clue? I was just thinking about how our feelings about something or our suspicions can make somebody else's actions and words seem so incredibly different. I've noticed this with myself, like when I don't like somebody, I read into every little thing that they say and do, if they look at me it is instantly that they were looking me up, or giving me some dirty snarl. or if they say something to me, it's just to make themselves look good for the people standing around. But although at some points i read into it a little too much, i'm normally pretty spot on correct!
I've gotten to the point of being sick of some certain people. They try to ruin my friendships and interfere with my life, and for no reason. Just for their own entertainment and immaturity. But the funny thing is that by them being so rude and stupid, it has only caused them to lose friends and encouraged me to pull my friends closer. I went through a phase of just having the stupidest friends and I was just not in a good place AT ALL. But once this school year started, I fell into a new realm. I have mad TONS of new good friends who care about me and love me the way I am. It is so amazing and I never go a morning anymore without somebody texting me just to say good morning or let me know that they love me. It is the best feeling in the world! I don't think i've ever been so happy in my life! I've grown up my whole life having people thrown in and out of my life, and now, even though i know that only maybe two or three or possibly none will stick around, i'm okay with it and going to enjoy the time I have with them now as best as I can! And it's my senior year so might as well live life on the crazy side a little bit right? ;)
When I write it is normally my personal feelings that I don't write for other people to read, so I get sooooo behind on my blogging, but from now on i'm going to put aside my personal writing and stay up on my blog, it is my definite goal for this year! And when I can finally start my novel it will make it much easier to post on my blog! My nano idea is so great! Like I am so majorly pumped about it! I can't wait to start writing it and to get it published!
Sunday, October 27, 2013
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Dream Story :)
Dear Diary,
I'm bored in physics class with nothing to do, so here I am! I went to my Math Leat meet competition last weekend. We took 4th in the nation! Staying at the hotel with my closest math leat friends was so much fun! We quizzed each other on geography till 10PM! If our parents found out we stayed up that late being so unproductive they would ground us for sure! Then....the....next...day....we..........................
Mckenna's head slipped out of her hands and onto the desk.
*fade into dream*
"Hey Joe! Pass the bottle this way!" Carl hollered across the hotel room.
"Mckenna! Alex! Why don't you pretty ladies come spin the bottle with us!" Carl said adding a flirty wink and a flip of his shaggy brown hair. Mckenna and Alex looked at each other. Carl always seemed a little attractive if you took away the abundance of pimples and the constant flow of white flakes from his hair. The girls nodded in agreement sat down in a circle with their math leat buds.
"Alright Mckenna, you spin first!" Joe announced. So she adjusted her pink sequin top and spun it.
"OHHHHH!!!!" Everybody screamed in laughter as the bottle slowly chose Alex to be her kiss. They stared each other in the eyes. What Mckenna didn't know was that Alex had always had some feelings for her but never knew how to convey them. Heart pounding Mckenna leaned in to Alex while sliding her hand up her thigh.
"PROBLEMS 32 THROUGH 96 ARE DUE TUESDAY! THAT'S TWO DAYS FROM NOW! Have a nice lunch kids!" The teacher screeched quickly jerking Mckenna out of her unusually frightening dream.
"Well diary.... I will never look at Alex the same...."
I'm bored in physics class with nothing to do, so here I am! I went to my Math Leat meet competition last weekend. We took 4th in the nation! Staying at the hotel with my closest math leat friends was so much fun! We quizzed each other on geography till 10PM! If our parents found out we stayed up that late being so unproductive they would ground us for sure! Then....the....next...day....we..........................
Mckenna's head slipped out of her hands and onto the desk.
*fade into dream*
"Hey Joe! Pass the bottle this way!" Carl hollered across the hotel room.
"Mckenna! Alex! Why don't you pretty ladies come spin the bottle with us!" Carl said adding a flirty wink and a flip of his shaggy brown hair. Mckenna and Alex looked at each other. Carl always seemed a little attractive if you took away the abundance of pimples and the constant flow of white flakes from his hair. The girls nodded in agreement sat down in a circle with their math leat buds.
"Alright Mckenna, you spin first!" Joe announced. So she adjusted her pink sequin top and spun it.
"OHHHHH!!!!" Everybody screamed in laughter as the bottle slowly chose Alex to be her kiss. They stared each other in the eyes. What Mckenna didn't know was that Alex had always had some feelings for her but never knew how to convey them. Heart pounding Mckenna leaned in to Alex while sliding her hand up her thigh.
"PROBLEMS 32 THROUGH 96 ARE DUE TUESDAY! THAT'S TWO DAYS FROM NOW! Have a nice lunch kids!" The teacher screeched quickly jerking Mckenna out of her unusually frightening dream.
"Well diary.... I will never look at Alex the same...."
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
September 14th, 2013
Writing has been so hard for me lately, I am working on some stuff but it just isn't enough to meet my 500 words a day :/
Life has become so difficult in the easiest way lately. I'm so sick of people dropping in and out of my life like I don't have feelings, but on the other side i've learned to just brush it off because if they were worth my tears and heartache then they wouldn't treat me the way they do.
So a little bit about me for you new Creative Writers!
My name is Adriel, I am a cat person so don't ever mistake me for a dog kinda girl, they're cute but they're too much work! Fashion is my world, I live it and breathe it, but don't get me wrong, give me a mud hole and I will play in it! I love to hang with the boys where there are no worries, I will skateboard, paintball, dirtbike, throw around a ball, whatever as long as everybody is happy doing it! I love people but if you cross me I wont pretend to be your friend. I like food. A lot. Give me a bag of chips and they will be gone within the hour. I spend too much of my time on Netflix... The Office, The Walking Dead, Ugly Betty, Gossip Girl, 9O21O, Pretty Little Liars, Monk, The Dick Van DIke Show, anything, you name it, I probably watch it! I am a zombie junkie, I love everything to do with zombies, I have my zombie apocalypse plan, my backup apocalypse plan, and my backup backup plan... I have a 13 year old sister whom I am VERY protective of and I am not afraid to sit down and have a conversation with any boy that tries to mess with her. I have an older brother in the Air Force who I love very much, and I have the most amazing parents! I have a cat named Milo and he is my baby and if anything ever happened to him I would have to buy 50 cats to make up for him. I also have two dogs that are good dogs... but as I said, not much of a dog person. I also have the most AMAZING boyfriend in the whole world, I don't know why I ever wasted any time on any other guy, I wish I had known him so long ago! But flirt with him and I will throw a fit and we will have some serious problems! I'm not scared of too many things, but mostly birds... owls mostly, i am deathly afraid of owls... I have awesome friends that I would do anything for :) I love to write and it's one of my only ways to let my feelings out, but sometimes when I have to write because somebody tells me I have to, it stresses me out and just becomes so hard. hmmmm what else? Well I will admit I used to be one of the most judgmental and rude people you would have ever met. But one day I just decided it was time to change and I did. I'm such a different person now and I will always do my best not to make you feel judged! And I wont base my opinions on what other people say about you until I get to know you myself :) I will always give you the benefit of the doubt :D Anywayssss I think I definitely reached my 500 words! Have a great night everybody! <3
XOXO
Adriel <3
Life has become so difficult in the easiest way lately. I'm so sick of people dropping in and out of my life like I don't have feelings, but on the other side i've learned to just brush it off because if they were worth my tears and heartache then they wouldn't treat me the way they do.
So a little bit about me for you new Creative Writers!
My name is Adriel, I am a cat person so don't ever mistake me for a dog kinda girl, they're cute but they're too much work! Fashion is my world, I live it and breathe it, but don't get me wrong, give me a mud hole and I will play in it! I love to hang with the boys where there are no worries, I will skateboard, paintball, dirtbike, throw around a ball, whatever as long as everybody is happy doing it! I love people but if you cross me I wont pretend to be your friend. I like food. A lot. Give me a bag of chips and they will be gone within the hour. I spend too much of my time on Netflix... The Office, The Walking Dead, Ugly Betty, Gossip Girl, 9O21O, Pretty Little Liars, Monk, The Dick Van DIke Show, anything, you name it, I probably watch it! I am a zombie junkie, I love everything to do with zombies, I have my zombie apocalypse plan, my backup apocalypse plan, and my backup backup plan... I have a 13 year old sister whom I am VERY protective of and I am not afraid to sit down and have a conversation with any boy that tries to mess with her. I have an older brother in the Air Force who I love very much, and I have the most amazing parents! I have a cat named Milo and he is my baby and if anything ever happened to him I would have to buy 50 cats to make up for him. I also have two dogs that are good dogs... but as I said, not much of a dog person. I also have the most AMAZING boyfriend in the whole world, I don't know why I ever wasted any time on any other guy, I wish I had known him so long ago! But flirt with him and I will throw a fit and we will have some serious problems! I'm not scared of too many things, but mostly birds... owls mostly, i am deathly afraid of owls... I have awesome friends that I would do anything for :) I love to write and it's one of my only ways to let my feelings out, but sometimes when I have to write because somebody tells me I have to, it stresses me out and just becomes so hard. hmmmm what else? Well I will admit I used to be one of the most judgmental and rude people you would have ever met. But one day I just decided it was time to change and I did. I'm such a different person now and I will always do my best not to make you feel judged! And I wont base my opinions on what other people say about you until I get to know you myself :) I will always give you the benefit of the doubt :D Anywayssss I think I definitely reached my 500 words! Have a great night everybody! <3
XOXO
Adriel <3
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